Now, This Is Love

Have you ever loved someone so much that you are willing to wait for them for years and years?

I often hear of lesbians who pine away for someone for eons.

Or of lesbians who are willing to agree to unusual circumstances, i.e: being the third party or being a temporary emotional crutch.

I have never ever felt this way.

Sure......some might say I am a hopeless romantic but my belief that everyone deserves someone who can love them PROPERLY trumps it.

So....imagine my horror,

Couple of days ago, I chanced upon a card an ex wrote to me at the peak of our romance.

It says " I am a one in a million ", inside her words oozed emotions, awakening strong emotions that I thought lay dormant.

Memories from 5 years ago flooded my mind and my heart physically ached.

Tears fell so quickly, I didn't have the chance to wipe them away.

I stood there, stunned.

I thought I might be going soft in my old age.

This was impossible, we both strongly agree that we are EXTREMELY unsuitable.

Even as friends, I can't stand her bullshit sometimes.

Then it struck me, despite the lack of the want to get back together, I was always secure in the thought that we really loved each other then.

She was an example of the way I want to love someone, the way I want someone to love me.

Minus the mutual impatience and shitty temper that is.

Now, this is love.

5 years later, how we loved each other wins hand down.